Few months ago I got an email from I Am Woman show producer, Antoinette; a part of me was excited. On the other hand, I was thinking “Oh my goodness!”……
According to her they got to know about me from the Mail and Guardian Book of Women 2012. I knew I had a story to tell but I wasn’t really sure if I was ready to share it. My story was something that I have kept to myself for a few years. I’m embarrassed to say this but I ignored that email and hoped she would forget about it…..
Antoinette was so persistent; she sent a message to my facebook page. I spoke to a couple of friends, my sister, my mom and asked for their advice…
My mom said…”Don’t you think you have a story? Why don’t you do it?”
I had several other things to consider. First of all, I was in the process of moving into my own place, my stuff was at a storage unit and at that particular time I was sharing a tiny living space with a friend. If I was gonna have a show featuring me and my life I wanted it to happen at my place.
To cut the story short, it took me a few days to figure out whether I wanted to do it or not (the thought of being on TV and talk about the darkest period in my life made me very nervous), eventually I replied back and agreed to be part of the show. I told them about my living situation and asked to be given a month to move into my new place and unpack my stuff. That’s exactly what happened….
Looking back, I’m glad I got to share the story…I feel relieved and light….I was very reluctant to do it at first but I thought what if someone else is going through a similar situation. I also thought of all those rural kids back in the homelands….they need to know that anything is possible. One’s background does not determine their future. I come from a very humble background….mud house, pit toilet (or not toilet at all), water from the dam, living on umphokoqo for breakfast, lunch and supper etc….All those things do not determine one’s fate.
Sometimes in life we get setbacks but with God on our side and with the support of our friends and family one can get through any circumstance.
That situation also taught me to appreciate the little things in life (e.g. just being alive, breathing…) to forgive myself, the people that wronged me, to move forward, have more faith in God, rely more on the people that love me and stop wanting to be superwoman all the time.
I mentioned a bible verse my mom used to make us cite every morning (from a Xhosa bible). I always remember this verse especially when facing challenges life throws at us. Romans 5: 1- 5
5:1 Therefore, since we have been declared righteous by faith, we have peace with God through our Lord Jesus Christ, 5:2 through whom we have also obtained access by faith into this grace in which we stand, and we rejoice in the hope of God’s glory. 5:3 Not only this, but we also rejoice in sufferings, knowing that suffering produces endurance; 5:4 and endurance, character; and character, hope. 5:5 And hope does not disappoint, because the love of God has been poured out in our hearts through the Holy Spirit who was given to us.
I would like to express my gratitude to the Plexus Films team. You guys are amazing! It has been a wonderful pleasure working with you and having you at my place. A lot of my friends(even the one’s I’ve never met on facebook) have asked me to tell you they are BIG fans of your show. I also got to meet the YouTube cooking sensation, Sarah. I’ll be sharing her Latkes recipe tomorrow.
One of my friends apparently took pictures of the TV screen while I was crying (I didn’t know I looked cute when crying, LOL!) and sent me the pics with an encouraging message which included this verse: 2 Corinthians 4:9 Persecuted, but not forsaken; cast down, but not destroyed.
A special Thank You to everyone that watched the show yesterday and for the wonderful emails and messages. If you missed yesterday’s episode watch the repeat tonight at 23:30 on SABC 3. OR watch it on the link below.